Okay. Hello :) I am writing because I would rather be eating! No biggie really, except that it is. I was doing amazing! Super-fantastically amazing!!! Up until my high calorie Sunday.
You may remember me mentioning it here.
Usually if I do this it helps me to get a jump on losing weight again. Kind of like a kick start or something, plus I get to eat, so of course I like it ;) It always works for me. The trick is not letting my high calorie day turn into a high calorie month!
I am eating more than I should be. It is way less than I used to eat, and I am still not going crazy, but it feels like a problem so I don't want to let it get out of hand.
I am noticing patterns that keep popping up. I usually like to trip myself up when I am doing too well :) That's how I roll!
Well, enough is enough! I no longer accept this! Tonight I have eaten some crappy stuff and I have done the whole 'argue with myself, lose said argument, eat something crappy routine' a few times. I am sure you've been here. Anyway, just now I was thinking, as I have done many (many, many, many) times in the past, "you already screwed up, you may as well just go with it!".
Then I stopped!
I am calling a halt.
I do not accept this!
This is no longer me. I matter more than this, and I won't be sucked back in again. I will not let a cookie - or whatever, be the boss of me :) I am kind of tired of coming down this road over and over again. Maybe I should take the road less traveled :) There is a lesson I need to learn here, though, obviously.
Maybe this is it. I just know that I am really happy that I was able to stop. I will say that this is a victory. I can stop, I know this now. I know that just because it feels like I am out of control - it doesn't mean that I am!
I am the boss, so there, cookie :P
*Note to self - write, write, write and write some more. It helps!!!
Bye for now,
I'm Not Sure I Can Do This
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