In my last post I mentioned that I was going to weigh myself on Tuesday and that I was going to start my weekly weigh-ins again until I reach my goal.
I wasn't lying, I had every intention of weighing myself on Tuesday.
But then Tuesday came and I was.......scared!!! I was scared to step on that stupid thing and post my weight here again and it felt like a big. huge. deal.
Silly me :) Sometimes that side of me still takes over, I
So, because I really do want to get moving again I just stepped on the scale this morning. For some reason just doing that one little thing makes me feel more powerful.
When I do not weigh in it is because I am worried, nervous, doubtful, anxious, scared, etc., etc., etc.
So just the act of stepping on the scale is like taking back some of the control.
Whether the number is a good one - you know what I mean :) - or a bad one, I have faced it and I am not just wondering. For me it is always a step forward.
So, needless to say, I am happy I did it.
Now I feel like I am aware, and I have a new start, and I am ready to move again!
I am up about 2 lbs. from my absolute lowest (my crazy head had me convinced it was more like 15 lbs.)
My official weight this morning is 148.52 lbs.
Tuesday I will post my weight on my chart and I am not letting my fear stop me.
You know if this journey wasn't so consuming and frustrating it would really be quite fascinating. I am figuring out so much about myself and I am actually amazed sometimes with the things I learn.
Anyway, that's it for today :)
Bye for now,