I was thinking about this earlier.
I have been eating a bit more junk food than usual lately. I feel a little tighter in the waist area. It is that time of the month, but I am pretty sure that junk food is the culprit.
So anyway, I was standing in the kitchen just now, and I was wondering - 'Am I struggling?'
I have been having this thought a lot over the last week or so. It pops into my head and out again just as quickly. Just an annoying little blip. Something to be easily quieted with a cookie...or three.
But just now, when that question popped into my head, I stopped. I thought. And I had a flash of what 'struggling' feels like. The 'accidental' overeating, the guilt, the shame, the anger, the stomach aches ;)
Did I really want that? Do I really want that?
Do I prefer feeling that way?
If I choose to struggle, then I am choosing those consequences. I choose to feel awful.
Over the last week or so, when I would wonder if I was struggling, I would recall the three cookies I ate earlier, or the extra snack, or whatever and I would think - "Yes, I am struggling", and so I did. That question started the cycle each time. It was kind of like I was giving myself permission to fail.
I don't know what caused all of this to flash into my head just now. I am just glad that it did. I am glad that I stopped and really thought about it.
Am I struggling?
Of course not!
I am choosing to not struggle.
I so much prefer to not struggle. I feel better. I feel fabulous. I feel more confident, I sleep better, I am so much happier, plus - I lose weight!!!
So, of course, I am not struggling. Just in case you were wondering ;)
Is it that easy?
I really think it can be!
Bye for now,
1 day ago