Hi :)
I am thinking about a lot of things lately. When am I not??? I thought I was doing pretty well with my eating. I am on the lookout for trip-ups and the sneaky little things my inner fat-girl may be trying to toss in my way. I thought I was doing pretty well. But then I realized I am still playing the tomorrow game. This is like when I say to myself, 'I will eat better tomorrow' or, 'I will exercise tomorrow'. I'm sure we all know how that goes. But I thought I was done with that. I was surprised when I found myself thinking just the other day, "When I am at my goal I won't be eating like this". That is exactly-the-same as the tomorrow game. I never even realized I was doing it still. There are still some things I am doing that are sabotaging me, and I tell myself I will stop when I make it to my goal. HUH!?!?!? I am really glad that I spotted this trap. I am looking on the bright side here :) Now that I hear that voice I can shut it down!!! When I hear it I can stop it. I want to make a whole lifestyle change. I do not want to diet. That will not work for me. So I need to start eating the way I will be eating at my goal, now. I will live like I am thin and healthy, eat like I am thin and healthy and then guess what - I will BE thin and healthy!!! I am really glad I spotted that sneaky, backwards thinking. So from now on when I am about to eat something that I don't really want or when I am tempted to just sit by and wait for my goal to come to me I will stop and act. I am going to be more conscious and aware and I am going to live. I am going to move towards my goal and not wait for it to magically get here. I am going to do it. I am such a rambler, huh? I wonder if anyone else can even make sense out of what I am saying. Well I get it, at least :)
One more point for Cara - Yay me!!!
Place In My Head
5 years ago
I get it Cara and struggle with the same things. The only difference is that I never felt like a fat girl. Even at my heaviest I felt thin. How weird is that? So, my goal is to look as thin on the outside as I feel on the inside.
ReplyDeleteYou are so insightful. Yay you!
Hey Mel,
ReplyDeleteI don't think that is weird at all. I have always been the opposite, though. I always felt like the fat girl even when I was thin and I just know that is why I am overweight now. I am so happy for you that you are the other way around :) I bet that means you will get to your goal in no time. We always create our lives the way we 'see' them. Thanks for your comment!
Cara :)
It's a journey and with each pound that goes away, I feel like I know me better. The layers of shame, are slowly being shed. I just weighed myself after not doing so for almost a week and I'm down another 2 pounds, so that's 41 now. I have another 29 to go. BTW my starting weight was 235.
ReplyDeleteI used to read your other blog but noticed that you no longer update it. There were so many things that I connected with. Not to mention that you are a fellow Canadian :)
Have a great weekend and keep on keepin' on.
Mel
I try to visualize eating like a thin person too...it works once in a while. lol! I've gotta work on that. I always feel thin inside nowadays. Some days it's hard for me to remember I'm fat b/c I feel so good, but then I look in the mirror...hopefully that'll be a motivator. :)
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