Thursday, May 20, 2010

Sneaky, Sneaky, Sneaky!!!

Hi :)

I am thinking about a lot of things lately. When am I not??? I thought I was doing pretty well with my eating. I am on the lookout for trip-ups and the sneaky little things my inner fat-girl may be trying to toss in my way. I thought I was doing pretty well. But then I realized I am still playing the tomorrow game. This is like when I say to myself, 'I will eat better tomorrow' or, 'I will exercise tomorrow'. I'm sure we all know how that goes. But I thought I was done with that. I was surprised when I found myself thinking just the other day, "When I am at my goal I won't be eating like this". That is exactly-the-same as the tomorrow game. I never even realized I was doing it still. There are still some things I am doing that are sabotaging me, and I tell myself I will stop when I make it to my goal. HUH!?!?!? I am really glad that I spotted this trap. I am looking on the bright side here :) Now that I hear that voice I can shut it down!!! When I hear it I can stop it. I want to make a whole lifestyle change. I do not want to diet. That will not work for me. So I need to start eating the way I will be eating at my goal, now. I will live like I am thin and healthy, eat like I am thin and healthy and then guess what - I will BE thin and healthy!!! I am really glad I spotted that sneaky, backwards thinking. So from now on when I am about to eat something that I don't really want or when I am tempted to just sit by and wait for my goal to come to me I will stop and act. I am going to be more conscious and aware and I am going to live. I am going to move towards my goal and not wait for it to magically get here. I am going to do it. I am such a rambler, huh? I wonder if anyone else can even make sense out of what I am saying. Well I get it, at least :)

One more point for Cara - Yay me!!!


  1. I get it Cara and struggle with the same things. The only difference is that I never felt like a fat girl. Even at my heaviest I felt thin. How weird is that? So, my goal is to look as thin on the outside as I feel on the inside.

    You are so insightful. Yay you!

  2. Hey Mel,
    I don't think that is weird at all. I have always been the opposite, though. I always felt like the fat girl even when I was thin and I just know that is why I am overweight now. I am so happy for you that you are the other way around :) I bet that means you will get to your goal in no time. We always create our lives the way we 'see' them. Thanks for your comment!

    Cara :)

  3. It's a journey and with each pound that goes away, I feel like I know me better. The layers of shame, are slowly being shed. I just weighed myself after not doing so for almost a week and I'm down another 2 pounds, so that's 41 now. I have another 29 to go. BTW my starting weight was 235.

    I used to read your other blog but noticed that you no longer update it. There were so many things that I connected with. Not to mention that you are a fellow Canadian :)

    Have a great weekend and keep on keepin' on.


  4. I try to visualize eating like a thin person works once in a while. lol! I've gotta work on that. I always feel thin inside nowadays. Some days it's hard for me to remember I'm fat b/c I feel so good, but then I look in the mirror...hopefully that'll be a motivator. :)