Feeling Great :)

I have been feeling really great this week. This is also the week I gave up junk food. Coincidence??? I think not! I am so glad that I gave up  the junk for a week. I actually forgot about it until I looked at the calendar and realized  that today was my last 'no junk food' day. It gets so easy to say no to all of the extra crap after just a day or so. I stopped missing it and forgot I was in the middle of a challenge. No sugar headaches this week and best of all I feel really great!!!  Did I mention that already? ;)  I am just posting this as a reminder to myself of how easy it is to kick the junk habit.  It was crazy-easy and I feel better, I do not plan to let the habit take over again.  Maybe I will just cut sugar out entirely, eventually, but for now it feels good to take the control away from the sugar monster who is lurking inside of me.  Anyway that's it for today, I'll be back tomorrow for weigh in day. 

Happy Monday!

Weigh-In Day

It's that time again :) I really did not want to step on the scale this morning.  I have been avoiding it.  So I did it anyway and I am glad that I did.  I always seem to blow things way out of proportion.  I am not where I want to be yet, not by a long shot.  But I am also definitely not doing as bad as I convince myself that I am.  I lost .22lbs.  Not great, I know!!!  But it is definitely nowhere near the 5-10 lbs I convinced myself that I had gained.  Isn't it crazy what our own minds can do to us?  I am so glad that I am recognizing these things more and more lately.  So anyway my current weight is 185.02 lbs.  Now to get things moving again :)  I am committing to no junk this week.  Maybe it sounds easy, but I am in the middle of a sugar situation :)  So getting past it always seems a little harder, once I am out of it is is much easier.  So I am committing to one week of no junk at all and next Tuesday I will reevaluate the situation.  I think I may have to just give up the crap for good.  I don't even really like it all that much, why do I let it get a hold of me?  Well, that's it for now.  I am giving up junk food, meaning cookies, granola bars, chips, anything packaged really.  One week, I will be able to think much more clearly without all this sugar in my system.  Happy Tuesday!

Bye for now,

Weigh-In Day

Tuesday is here again and, yay for me, that means it's weigh in day :)  I weighed myself and there is no change from last week.  I am maintaining. 
I was a little disappointed when I saw that and then I realized a couple of things.  Number one is that this past weekend was Thanksgiving - and that is usually a problem for me.  And number two is that I am right in the middle of that t.o.m., ugh!  In the past either of those two things would have packed on at least a bit of weight  So I feel like I have been doing really well. 
I have been making good choices.  I have been keeping up with my 30 Day Shred Challenge (I love workout 2, btw).  I have been doing okay. 
I can do better, I know that.  I am sure you guys know it too. 
I have been having thoughts lately of closing up my blog.  I have thought about quitting.  I keep asking myself "What are you really getting from this anyway?".  But I am not going to quit.  I am not going to give up. 
It really does suck to post when I am doing a crappy job, or when the scale isn't moving, or - even worse - moving up!!!  But I am still going to post.  People may find it depressing, I may lose followers.  Maybe nobody will read.  I understand, I love the bloggers who are consistently losing.  They are definitely inspiring.  I hope to one day be there. 
But for now I am going to post where I am at. 
I must have some kind of internal block that will not let me move forward.  I cannot seem to get any more weight off.  I will not stop though.  I never used to follow through on things.  I never held myself accountable for anything. 
I accepted the fact that I was a quitter! 
The fact that I have been at this since April is amazing to me.  It will be six months tomorrow.  For the past six months I have been making better choices, I have been choosing to take better care of myself.  I am happier, I am more confident, I feel like a different person.  Already!!! 
I am going to be grateful for the progress I have made so far, and I know I will make it through all of my goals.  I am having a hard time now, I hate sharing here sometimes - but I am still gonna do it :) 
I haven't quit yet, and I don't plan to. 
So tired of sitting here, I want to move forward - I guess we will see how badly I want it.

Weigh-In Day

Hello,

Today is Tuesday, so that means weigh in day, as usual. It is also day 5 of my own, personal, 30 Day Shred Challenge (yikes!!!) and Day 5 of the Gettin' Sexy Challenge. I have been doing really great.  I am glad to say that I have been staying on track with both challenges for the last five days.  I plan to do better with my eating for the next week, but I am feeling pretty good about things.  My weight this morning was 185.24 lbs.  So I have lost 3.08 lbs.  It isn't everything that I gained last week, but it is a good start.  I know that I can do better though.  So that will be next week's task :)

Bye for now,

Shredding

I did it!!! Day one of the 30 Day Shred, I mean. I was thinking of joining Syl's October Challenge, but I wasn't sure if my DVD would be here on time.  And, to be honest, I was a little scared intimidated to join in.  I figured it would be hard, and horrible and unbearable.  Well, anyway, my copy got here yesterday.  So I started it today, and I am going to challenge myself.  It was hard, for sure, but not as hard as I was expecting.  It seems crazy that I can do this.  I remember when I was so challenged just doing the step exercise on the Wii Fit Plus.  I was so surprised when I finished it.  My 9 y.o. daughter asked why I was so excited and I said "I didn't think I would be able to do it" so she say's "You just don't give yourself enough credit".  Smarty Pants!!!  I guess she has been listening to me :)  Oh, and just so I can look back and see future improvement (on those days when I may want to quit) I have to say:
jumping jacks - Yikes!!!
push ups - Ouch!!!
and sideways, lunge-y thingies with hand weights - Raaaargh!!!  :)

Happy Friday,

Loving The Journey

I am feeling fabulous! It is such a great feeling.  So I have been looking at what makes me feel this way. Strangely, it is not the number on the scale.  When I feel really great, it is because I am doing things that I love.
I have been struggling a bit lately and as I was looking back over my posts and reviewing my habits I realized something.  I am happiest and, consequently, lose the most weight, when I fill my days up with things that make me joyful. 
It turns into a cycle of good.  A cycle I definitely want to keep going.
I have been digging into my emotional crap a lot.  And I think that is good.  I believe it is necessary.  But I keep getting so caught up in the work of it that I forget to just be.
This week I have been doing things I love.  I have been reading books that inspire me, I have been listening to my positive thinking c.d., I have been drawing.  And yes, I have been exercising, and enjoying it!!!
I used to fill myself up with food and waste my time on mind numbing activities.  Now as I find myself waking up and stepping away from the food it seems like I have all of this extra space or time to fill up.
I have been taking away so much of my old life and at times I have felt a little scared and started to struggle.  It finally hit me.  Fill up the space with good.  With joy.  With all of the things you love.  Live like you deserve to be happy.  Take the time to do what you love.  Even if it is "silly" or "non-productive". 
I mean, seriously, when I draw what I create doesn't even usually make sense to me.  It may look crazy to others, or seem like a waste of time - but it makes me happy!!!
I think a lot of the time I feel like I deserve to be punished for what I have allowed myself to become.  I am making the journey harder than it has to be.  When I struggle, it seems like that is how it should be and I accept it. 
But what if I don't accept that? 
What if I decide that instead of feeling deprived I want to feel fulfilled? 
That is how I am feeling this week, and guess what - food doesn't feel like such a big deal this week.  Coincidence?  I think not!  I have decided to see what I can fill myself up with, if not food.
I feel fabulous!
I am excited about where I am going, sure.  But today I am loving the journey.  Isn't that exciting?  I am not going to block this feeling off anymore, I feel alive with energy and creativity.
Note to self: Keep it up :)




P.S. I am joining in on Lucy's Blog Hop again this week. I always find a lot of great blogs when I do :)

Gettin' Sexy

Katie at Finding The Thin Within is hosting a 'Gettin' Sexy Challenge' for October.  I have decided to join in on this one.  It is pretty simple, all you have to do is commit to doing something that makes you feel better about yourself for the month of October.  I have decided that I want to commit to listening to my positive thinking c.d. every day.  It is such a simple thing, but I never keep up with it and it always makes me feel great.  So that's it.  You can check out the details for the challenge here: