Tuesday is here again and, yay for me, that means it's weigh in day :) I weighed myself and there is no change from last week. I am maintaining.
I was a little disappointed when I saw that and then I realized a couple of things. Number one is that this past weekend was Thanksgiving - and that is usually a problem for me. And number two is that I am right in the middle of that t.o.m., ugh! In the past either of those two things would have packed on at least a bit of weight So I feel like I have been doing really well.
I have been making good choices. I have been keeping up with my 30 Day Shred Challenge (I love workout 2, btw). I have been doing okay.
I can do better, I know that. I am sure you guys know it too.
I have been having thoughts lately of closing up my blog. I have thought about quitting. I keep asking myself "What are you really getting from this anyway?". But I am not going to quit. I am not going to give up.
It really does suck to post when I am doing a crappy job, or when the scale isn't moving, or - even worse - moving up!!! But I am still going to post. People may find it depressing, I may lose followers. Maybe nobody will read. I understand, I love the bloggers who are consistently losing. They are definitely inspiring. I hope to one day be there.
But for now I am going to post where I am at.
I must have some kind of internal block that will not let me move forward. I cannot seem to get any more weight off. I will not stop though. I never used to follow through on things. I never held myself accountable for anything.
I accepted the fact that I was a quitter!
The fact that I have been at this since April is amazing to me. It will be six months tomorrow. For the past six months I have been making better choices, I have been choosing to take better care of myself. I am happier, I am more confident, I feel like a different person. Already!!!
I am going to be grateful for the progress I have made so far, and I know I will make it through all of my goals. I am having a hard time now, I hate sharing here sometimes - but I am still gonna do it :)
I haven't quit yet, and I don't plan to.
So tired of sitting here, I want to move forward - I guess we will see how badly I want it.
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