Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Weigh-In Day

Tuesday is here again and, yay for me, that means it's weigh in day :)  I weighed myself and there is no change from last week.  I am maintaining. 
I was a little disappointed when I saw that and then I realized a couple of things.  Number one is that this past weekend was Thanksgiving - and that is usually a problem for me.  And number two is that I am right in the middle of that t.o.m., ugh!  In the past either of those two things would have packed on at least a bit of weight  So I feel like I have been doing really well. 
I have been making good choices.  I have been keeping up with my 30 Day Shred Challenge (I love workout 2, btw).  I have been doing okay. 
I can do better, I know that.  I am sure you guys know it too. 
I have been having thoughts lately of closing up my blog.  I have thought about quitting.  I keep asking myself "What are you really getting from this anyway?".  But I am not going to quit.  I am not going to give up. 
It really does suck to post when I am doing a crappy job, or when the scale isn't moving, or - even worse - moving up!!!  But I am still going to post.  People may find it depressing, I may lose followers.  Maybe nobody will read.  I understand, I love the bloggers who are consistently losing.  They are definitely inspiring.  I hope to one day be there. 
But for now I am going to post where I am at. 
I must have some kind of internal block that will not let me move forward.  I cannot seem to get any more weight off.  I will not stop though.  I never used to follow through on things.  I never held myself accountable for anything. 
I accepted the fact that I was a quitter! 
The fact that I have been at this since April is amazing to me.  It will be six months tomorrow.  For the past six months I have been making better choices, I have been choosing to take better care of myself.  I am happier, I am more confident, I feel like a different person.  Already!!! 
I am going to be grateful for the progress I have made so far, and I know I will make it through all of my goals.  I am having a hard time now, I hate sharing here sometimes - but I am still gonna do it :) 
I haven't quit yet, and I don't plan to. 
So tired of sitting here, I want to move forward - I guess we will see how badly I want it.


  1. I always believed it you want something bad enough, you will do whatever it takes to accomplish it !

    You are doing an amazing job, keep it up. You are moving forward in many ways, you just need to look for them.


  2. Well, if it means anything, I really enjoy your blog and you are one of the rare bloggers that I relate to. I am also a quitter and I understand the feelings you are experiencing. It's good that you are not going to give up the blog, I'd miss you if you did. Btw, I believe in you and I think you'll work through whatever is holding you back right now. You can do it. *hugs*

  3. I'm glad you're staying. I think we all feel like that from time to time. There are days I don't want to blog either, but I would miss reading so many inspiring blogs that keep me going. Just hang in there.

  4. Don't stop posting. When I want to beat myself up for not losing any weight (but not putting any on either) in the last 4 months, I know that I can count on you to help me understand my self-sabotaging behaviour. You say what I'm thinkin', scary huh? lol.
    You are doing it girl! Maybe not as quickly as you would like, but it's happening right before your very eyes. And now that we can see the most recent photo, we are testament to that change too. N E V E R give up :)