Weigh-In Day...

...was on Tuesday, as usual, but I didn't do a post. You may have noticed. I know that Mel did- thanks for checking on me, btw :) There is no change, I am in a slump - and I hate it. I really do. I am so ready to be back on track. I know that I am choosing to be slumpy ;) - the dictionary hates me right now!!! So I am officially getting over it. I am going away for the night with my husband on the 21st. We really deserve the mini-vacation, and I cannot wait. So, I figured that I have two weeks until then to give it my all. I am calling it my "New Attitude Challenge" or maybe the "Just Do It Already Challenge". Whatever, basically I have a plan and I am doing it - NO EXCUSES!!! Hey that's a good name - "The No Excuses Challenge". So, anyway, I am committing to one hour a day of Wii fit, 60 crunches a day and weights every other day. Food-wise I will be 100% on plan. I wrote up my meal plan for the days leading up to our escape mini-vacation and I am sticking-to-it. I have been doing awesome today, Yay me! I am also going to be using affirmations and meditation to keep me focused and feeling fabulous. I am really tired of feeling like poo. Done! I am also drinking a set amount of water each day, 'cause it's on the plan - and there are no excuses remember??? So it's pretty simple - I just need to stick to it and then I will feel fabulous. With today being day 1 there are 14 days total to my personal challenge. I am planning to post each day of the challenge and keep track of how awesome I am doing. Today's food was 100 % on plan and I did 1/2 hour so far on the Wii. I know I have to finish up the rest of my exercise and I will. I have to, that is the beauty of my "No Excuses Challenge" - or whatever it is called - I gotta do it! Tomorrow I will be back to tell you for sure that I did in fact finish it all up. Hope all is great with all my fellow bloggers!

Bye for now,

Weigh-In Day

Hello :)
I am feeling a bit better today. Thank goodness. I hate being sick - I know, everyone does. I did my weigh in this morning, and I was pleasantly surprised. I didn't gain!!! Yay! I am down .88 lbs. from last week. I know I can do better, and I plan to, but for now I am happy that I didn't gain. So my weight now is 184.8 lbs. I am so close to 20 lbs. lost. I know that I will get there soon. I am realizing even more lately that I need to work on my positive attitude. I am choosing to let things get me off track and I am giving negative things too much power over me. I plan to spend a lot more time visualizing my life exactly how I want it. I am going to live with more of an attitude of gratitude. I am pretty positive usually, and I am very grateful for all of the things in my life - but I need to focus on the good more. I need to let the past go and move away from negativity. I am starting to sound rambly again :) But my point is, get rid of the negative and embrace the positive. I guess that's all for now. Hope your day is fabulous!

Bye for now,

Feeling Crappy

Hi.
I am sick today. I am feeling really terrible. My throat is really swollen. When I looked in the mirror this morning I was shocked. It looks like I haven't lost any weight, in my face. My jaw, that I swear was noticeable just last night is nonexistent and my neck looks all bloated and puffy. I looked in my throat and it is all red, I hope it gets better soon. I know that I am prone to throat problems, but I hate this swollen look. Plus it is feeling terrible. I am going to weigh myself tomorrow, even though I do not want to. I am sure it will be be awful, but I am definitely not out of the game. Every time I struggle and make it through I know that I am learning something valuable. This is a journey, so even when the road gets bumpy, I am committed to keeping on. Anyway, I am feeling crappy, so I will say bye for now :)

Until tomorrow,

Stress or Why Isn't This Cookie Helping?!?!?!?

So I have been dealing a lot with that 's' word over the last week or so. It may be apparent from my weigh in day :) I actually feel like I probably should have gained, so a maintain was a little bit of a surprise. I have really been letting things get to me. I have really been letting stress rule me. It sucks - A LOT!!! I have been a little bit of a basket case, possibly a raging case of PMS ;) But, YIKES!!! - enough already! I am not exercising like I should, I am not eating like I should, and, wouldn't you know it, I feel like crap because of it. Shocker, I know. It has been so long since I allowed stress to rule me that it kind of blindsided me this time. GRRRRRRRR!!!! So, in the spirit of moving on here is what I have learned. Food is, apparently, no longer my drug of choice. Huh. Is that even possible? It really feels that way. It just doesn't seem to make me feel better anymore. Believe me, this week has definitely tested the theory - and I tried valiantly to stuff my emotions at times. I cannot eat anywhere near as much as I used to and feel at all OK. It didn't make me feel better at all, on any level. This is good, I am sure of it. But also strange. No??? Before I could eat until it made me feel sick and strangely it felt as though I had accomplished something, because the food soothed me. Now, I don't even get the temporary good feeling. I am not trapped in a vicious, horrible cycle. Not anymore! I cannot do it anymore - I actually hate doing this to myself! I feel better when I eat better and I am fully aware of this as I am stuffing my face. It really feels like I am so over the unhealthy, binge-type eating. I am moving on, I am choosing to do better right now, even though I don't necessarily want to;) But, I thought it was remarkable that food seems to be slowly losing it's hold over me. I am not under it's control anymore! Amazing! I am taking this new knowledge with me as I continue on my journey. I am doing an amazing job and I acknowledge that. This setback is over and I am taking the advice of Keelie at Real Fat and pulling up my big girl panties ;) I will say that the stress has hit me harder because I don't have my old best pal to comfort me - but guess what, I am working it out, and I am dealing. I have learned a lot about me this week - so even though my weight was a maintain and I did really bad on so many levels, I will be happy that I am learning to cope without my crutch. - Go, Cara, Go!!!

Bye for now,

Weigh-In Day

Happy Tuesday :)

Just a quick post today to track my weight. It is my daughter's ninth birthday today, so I will make it snappy and get to celebrating with the birthday girl! But, can I just take a moment to say - Oh. My. Goodness!!! How do I have a nine year old??? - LOL!!! Anyway on to the weight. Somehow I am exactly the same weight as last week. I am definitely OK with no change, because I had a pretty good two weeks. But, is it weird that I am exactly the same? It's the second time that it has happened, so just thought it was weird. Anyway that's it for today.

Bye for now,

Do You Hate Skinny Girls???

I am reading back through a book I picked up a few months ago. It is called Secrets of a Former Fat Girl and it was written by Lisa Delaney. While I don't agree with the whole book, I thought there were some useful ideas in it, so I am skimming through it again. Anyway one thing bothered me the first time I read it, and today when I opened the book I was annoyed all over again. The very first sentence on the introduction page is "You don't know me, but you probably hate me." The reason I probably hate the author, according to her, is that she is a size 2, has run marathons, eats chocolate every day, etc., etc. This really bugs me. A lot! I do not hate skinny girls. It never occurred to me that I should. Why would I??? Because they make different choices than I do? Because they are cuter than me? I am completely aware of how I got here, to this size. I ate too much and I didn't move enough - or much at all! I chose to be fat, on some level. Assuming that I hate all skinny girls make it seem like, because I am fat, I am full of envy and/or jealousy. So not true!!! I am full of Doritos ;) Just kidding! But seriously, why would I hate someone because they chose differently than me? I don't get it. I am aware that some people do, hate out of jealousy, I am not completely naive. But I really feel like it is a huge waste of time. Time that I choose to spend on other, more productive, things. Such as finding my missing ankle bones, for example ;) So what about you? Do you hate skinny girls? Is there a club I should have joined? Just curious :)

Bye for now,

The Big Reveal :) or My "Before" Pic

OK, so I have been putting off posting my pics for various reasons. Mainly my reason excuse is that my computer and camera hate each other right now. I have no idea how to fix this problem, so I "can't" post any pics. But really, if I wanted to, I could get off my butt, go to the store, print out my pics and scan them here. A longer process, for sure - but easily doable - at least until they are on speaking terms again ;) Anyway, needless to say, I have just been putting the whole thing off. Then I was looking through my pictures that are already on my computer and realized that there are a few of me already on here. Hmmmm. Maybe I could just post one of these? - uh, DUH!!! :) Sooooooo here goes nothing:


*note* This pic is not very recent, but it shows me before I lost any of my weight (this time) and is at least a step out of my comfort zone, out of hiding. Plus, since I would rather have some of my weight loss pics on here, I am sure this will get me off my butt ;) Anyway that's all for now - I am just going to post this before I lose my nerve.

Bye for now,