You may remember me mentioning it here.
Usually if I do this it helps me to get a jump on losing weight again. Kind of like a kick start or something, plus I get to eat, so of course I like it ;) It always works for me. The trick is not letting my high calorie day turn into a high calorie month!
I am eating more than I should be. It is way less than I used to eat, and I am still not going crazy, but it feels like a problem so I don't want to let it get out of hand.
I am noticing patterns that keep popping up. I usually like to trip myself up when I am doing too well :) That's how I roll!
Well, enough is enough! I no longer accept this! Tonight I have eaten some crappy stuff and I have done the whole 'argue with myself, lose said argument, eat something crappy routine' a few times. I am sure you've been here. Anyway, just now I was thinking, as I have done many (many, many, many) times in the past, "you already screwed up, you may as well just go with it!".
Then I stopped!
I am calling a halt.
I do not accept this!
This is no longer me. I matter more than this, and I won't be sucked back in again. I will not let a cookie - or whatever, be the boss of me :) I am kind of tired of coming down this road over and over again. Maybe I should take the road less traveled :) There is a lesson I need to learn here, though, obviously.
Maybe this is it. I just know that I am really happy that I was able to stop. I will say that this is a victory. I can stop, I know this now. I know that just because it feels like I am out of control - it doesn't mean that I am!
I am the boss, so there, cookie :P
*Note to self - write, write, write and write some more. It helps!!!
Bye for now,
Just the fact that you wrote all that shows how well you did. It's the unconscious, have to eat right now and nothing will stop me impulse that does the damage. As soon as we start arguing and resisting we are on a way of recovery. I agree about writing. It helps so much. Makes a world of difference. Keep doing it Cara and remember that my email is always open for you if you need to write :)
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